November 2011
4 posts
Self-stimulating soothers in social situations:...
jumpedtherabbit:
birdinthefist:
sherlocksblanket:
bittergrapes:
This is a series for neurodivergents and people on the autism spectrum as well as anyone with social anxiety, agoraphobia, or other socially-induced anxieties. I would like to note that I, personally, suffer from mild agoraphobia, strong social anxiety, and am neurodivergent (or as Howie put it, ‘near-autie’). These are things...
“My day passes between logic, whistling, going for walks, and being depressed. I...”
– Wittgenstein to Russell, Xmas 1921 (via whyexistence)
October 2011
7 posts
Types of cis bigots I am quite tired of (a bit of...
kiriamaya:
[warning for cissexism]
The Fundiegelical: “You may think you’re ‘happy’ by wearing the clothing of the opposite sex, but you’re living in sin and you’re going straight to hell! Jesus loves you.”
The “Enlightened” Liberal: “But gender doesn’t even matter, because deep down, we’re all the same. So why is it such a big deal what I call you?”
The TERF: “By embracing a gender role...
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there’s no fool-proof way to stop compulsive behaviors.
this is not an epiphany, but rather a reminder—getting disappointed in myself is not going to help anything.
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September 2011
7 posts
TW: denial of the existence of depression,...
singingeachtoeach:
phallic-rage:
pixiemoon42:
hopelessly-romantic-cynic:
Original Title: “You know what? Depression isn’t real.”
singingeachtoeach:
withhonesthearts:
isanybodyfeelinme:
You’re just sad. It’s natural. It happens.
Hey, fuck you. Why don’t you struggle with depression for a while and get back to me. I fucking hate arrogant people.
“Depression isn’t real.” Let’s do...
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March 2011
5 posts
“Do you ever get that feeling where you don’t want to talk to anybody? You don’t...”
– Unknown (via lovingstranger)
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“Everything is empty of itself. Take a piece of paper, for example. There is no...”
– SA forums user Adaptive Systems (via creaves)
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looks like the cycle is going to be:
stop eating nails/cuticles let them grow back over a couple of weeks start taking care of them last maybe a month start eating the fuck out of them again when a finger or two gets really bad, stop again.
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so i’ve just realized that i’m kind of disassociated from my
see i don’t even know what i prefer to call it
i mean, i enjoy using it, for sure, but. it’s always in this mental space that’s…off, somehow.
February 2011
1 post
January 2011
2 posts
diary: progress report
trichotillomania
onychophagia
dermatophagia
— I’d ask why it’s so hard to stop, but I know there’s no real answer to that question.
Starting with the easiest. Already have three fingernails on each hand looking normal, thanks to buying emery boards at 1 a.m. when I started trying to trim them with my teeth. I can feel them, all of them, this weird humming feeling, and...
resolutions
hopefully these are manageable enough.
1. get better at controlling my compulsions
2. be more sociable
3. figure out a viable career path
that’s pretty much it
December 2010
3 posts
“He awoke each morning with the desire to do right, to be a good and meaningful...”
– JONATHAN SAFRAN FOER, Everything is Illuminated (via booberg)
November 2010
3 posts
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things i don't understand #280
vehicles with ridiculously bright headlights. especially when they’re of the blue-white variety. are you driving with your highbeams on or not
if not
WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOUR CAR
—i would love driving at night if it weren’t for these jerks fucking with my light sensitivity.
plaid button-down shirts
I have two short-sleeved ones; they’re my favorite out of all my tops because I don’t need to wear my binder under them. Of course this is a double-edged comfort, because then I can’t hug anybody and the very fact of going sans binder is a reminder that I still don’t know when surgery will be possible and I have to just. Not think about it.
depression attacks are awesome
and last week was so good, too
(not really)
ugh i don’t like not doing well in classes, and i don’t like caring about that
and just thinking about this makes me feel like i’m being self-centered and ugh this is not working.
October 2010
8 posts
ROBIN'S STAGES OF PROCRASTINATION
robin-sparkles:
STAGE ONE:
Feeling awesome. You receive the task/assignment. You decide to take care of it early so you don’t stress yourself out like every other time. You got this.
STAGE TWO:
Chillin’. You haven’t started working on it yet, but you’re thinking about it. That counts, right? There’s still time. You’re totally still gonna rock this shit.
STAGE THREE:
Limbo. The...
posting on craigslist can set one up for some...
“i tried to change myself by dating other chicks but ain’t wokring out…man…f***k this! sogmrhh”
“It seems to me that the idea of a personal God is an anthropomorphic concept...”
– Albert Einstein (via robot-heart-politics)
why have i spent all day feeling almost like i want to cry
transartorialism:
You’re wondering if I’m lonely: OK then, yes, I’m lonely as a plane rides lonely and level on its radio beam, aiming across the Rockies for the blue-strung aisles of an airfield on the ocean.
You want to ask, am I lonely? Well, of course, lonely as a woman driving across country day after day, leaving behind mile after mile little towns she might have stopped and...
September 2010
15 posts
“Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love;...”
– Max Ehrman, Desiderata (via ablativeabby)
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i made a schedule to help with the distraction
aaaaand i’m already way off.
gave in and went to campus...
they told me i should write to my profs because of missing assignments and not being able to focus on anything.
here’s what i wrote, only edited it a few times (really am losing my concentration, ha)
Dear ______ Because I know I haven’t been doing as well in class as I can, I needed to explain that I’ve been struggling with a very bad experience from this summer and now a...
Do It Now →
vvvp:
jingc:
We procrastinate because we are afraid. We’re afraid it’s too much work and that it will drain us. We’re afraid we’ll screw it up and get in trouble. We’re afraid we don’t know how to do it. We’re afraid because, well, we’ve been putting it off forever and every time we put it off it seems a little more fearsome in our minds. That’s why not putting things off is so liberating....
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jumpedtherabbit:lucyphermann:
The City // Constantine P. Cavafy (tr. Edmund Keely)
You said: “I’ll go to another country, go to another shore, find another city better than this one. Whatever I try to do is fated to turn out wrong and my heart lies buried like something dead. How long can I let my mind moulder in this place? Wherever I turn, wherever I look, I see the black ruins of my life,...
“It was a source of both terror and comfort to me then that I often seemed...”
– From Housekeeping, by Marilynne Robinson. (via thehoodwink)
me and my addictive personality
What right do I have to get angry at my dad for his endless stop-start approach to quitting smoking when I started the summer with a promise to control my internet use and now I stay up until 3 or 4 AM reading fanfiction instead of doing college homework or going outside?
